One week! One week until the wedding and to say I’m stressed would be an understatement. I’m not even sure what it is exactly I’m so stressed about. All the big stuff is figured out. Final counts are in. All the little stuff I delegated to other people, but here I am, going crazy.
I was supposed to be out of town running a half this weekend. I’ve had a rough couple of weeks so my mom talked me out of going. However, I did manage to let her talk me into going to a 6 mile run with her today. The run was rough. I struggled the whole time and I begged to let me turn around so I could just be done with it. Of course my stubborn mom refused and made me keep going. So I did. I started to cry and I kept running. By then my mom was begging me to stop because obviously something isn’t right. Runs decrease stress, not make you cry. I stopped and sobbed. Flat out bawled my eyes out and I have absolutely no idea why. I did agree to turn around now upset that I probably let my mom down. I may have not made it 6 miles today but I still managed 5 and I have to say I feel so much better!!
For anyone that says running doesn’t help stress or anxiety, you are dead wrong. Running literally is a life saver for me. I’d lose my mind if I wasn’t able to run. Today proved that. I needed a good cry and a good run. Now I just have to manage to keep running all week to help keep my sanity. I think I can, I think I can.