For all who know me, like really know me, knows how bad my anxiety is or can be. Today was ROUGH. I woke up this morning and there was snow everywhere. It was covering everything. I live in Minnesota and it’s January so I can’t even be surprised. I just wasn’t expecting it since it’s been so nice lately.
Even though my night sweats are back full force and I haven’t slept much the last two nights, I woke up in a good mood. I did a full face of makeup (got the OK from the dermatologist-I’ll save that story for another day) and curled my hair. I was planning on getting to work early even though I assumed the roads were crappy so I left earlier than usual. I know to drive slow when we get any snow/ice because they barely treat the county road I live near and it’s always terrible.
I was going maybe 40-45 tops thinking I was only driving on a nice new layer of snow when I saw 6 deer running across the road in front of me. I hit my brakes (not super hard or anything) but it was enough for them to lock and I slid right into the last deer. I am 27 and I hit my very first deer and I’m from northern Wisconsin. Are you flipping kidding me? I immediately started to cry and pulled my car over on the next road (like 100 yards away from where I hit the deer.) I immediately called my husband to tell him what just happened literally 3 miles from my house.
Here’s where I will mention I am driving a brand new, 2019, doesn’t even have plates yet, nor have I made a car payment, Honda Pilot and now I need a new front bumper.
After looking at my car and making sure I can still drive it, I was planning on stopping at my husbands work to have him check it out quick to make sure I can make the 45 mile drive to work. I called my mom on my hands free to tell her what happened and I made it maybe 3 miles down the road. I was going extra slow now knowing it was icy under the snow. My car literally slid to the edge of the road and once my tires hit the gravel on the shoulder, I lost complete control of my vehicle. I literally screamed and yelled to my mom I was going to roll my car because it was everywhere and about to go in the ditch. I don’t know who or what was looking over me but all of the sudden I was back in my lane going down the road. I was absolutely hysterical. I couldn’t breathe or even form words. I made it to my moms house a mile away and stopped to calm down. I somehow calmed down enough and got the courage to not only still go to work, but also drive myself to work.
I literally cried off and on all day at work.
I’m safe. I’m not hurt. My new car isn’t totaled. I didn’t go in the ditch. No one else was involved. I made it to work in one piece. I’m okay.
No matter how many times I’ve told myself this today, it really hasn’t made my day any easier. But I truly am thankful that it wasn’t worse than it was. It happened. It’s done. It’s over.
Ps. Sorry if this is all over the place. I’m exhausted and too tired to proof read at the moment, will edit tomorrow!